Be still my beating heart... No, for real, cut it out. So my heart decided to just kinda throw itself out of whack a while back. I hate taking time out of taking care of my family to have to take care of myself. It's a fault, not admirable, I know. It's the same reason I don't take the time for myself to exercise, or plan healthier meals... I just don't have time to be sick, to think about myself, to take any time away from the family.
But I guess with all this heart crap, I'm gonna have to. You know, I think they may need me around for awhile. So this is what's up with the heart stuff, since some of you have been asking me and I kinda left that out there with the whole heart monitor thing.
My ol' ticker just kinda freaks itself out sometimes and starts racing. There are times that I feel like I'm having a heart attack and I'm about to pass out aren't recorded, so I have no idea how fast my heart is going then or for how long. But there are other times that I just felt a little "flutter" that are recorded. At those times my heart is just jumping to 200 beats a minute for like 6 seconds and then going back to normal.
The long and short of it is that it's not normal, and it's not good. So I went to a cardiologist who basically told me he doesn't want to mess with me and is sending me to a special cardiologist. I thought any cardio. dr. was a specialist, but evidently I am very very special. So he changed my heart meds. to something stronger, patted my back and wished me luck with all this stuff. So I go see the "special guy" right after Thanksgiving. As in, the day my husband is suppose to move to another state without me to start his new job.
So I guess if I haven't talked about my stuff, it's more an avoidance of what's going on than anything. I can't fix it myself, so I am just acting like it's not there. At least until the 30th when I go to the big dr. in the big city and have to deal with it. But thanks for caring guys.. I'll try to be better about keeping you posted.
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